friday - 16/6/6

Its 10am. I suddenly dont know why I began this entry.

Well, yesterday had its pros and cons. It wasn't a productive day at all, because I realised that I'd lost my homework. But anyway today was supposed to be a day I was really looking forward to since Monday, I think. Then fate played a joke on me and I was really dreading today yesterday.

Yesterday night was a bad night for me..I knew I couldnt face another day emotionally and physically alone at home so I decided to go out. My friend and I took our time in making plans for today. He was a fantastic friend to accept an impromptu suggestion to go out. He knew I was feeling down and I guess going out and leaving all my troubles at home was the best solution at this moment. I didnt want to brood all day at home either.

Yeah, well, after a very, very session of deciding where to go and what to do and what time in order to make it in time for a cell meeting later that early evening. Its not really my first time to a cell, but I've not been to one for a really long time since I left JCC. I still miss JCC sometimes.

I was stupid last night. I didnt keep my tongue in check and my fingers were itchy so I said a whole lot of things I realise I shouldn't've said. I slept around 3am last night beacause I was talking on the phone and on msn too..Didnt feel like sleeping anyway. I couldnt even have peace in the morning when I took my shower. All I heard was constant banging on the door and shouts for me to hurry up. Cant even take my time to brush my teeth. Apparenly my sister was late for a vsit to my grandma.

I'll be leaving in about an hour's time for tiong plaza. We finally decided on Garfield last night. I hope its nice cuz I didnt really like the first one =x

And before the movie is Sakae Sushi! Yeah! I've been longing to eat Sakae for a long, long time. Hahaz, no pun intended. I know nothing will go wrong later. I'm counting on a great time to, you know, let off steam.

Y'know, I realised that actually my problems arent as bad as I'd imagined. I mean, I should be on my knees thanking God that things didnt go to the extreme. At least I didnt get it as bad as Job. And if he could experience so much emotional pain, whats mine beside his? Besides, losing someone that you love and who also loves you can be much worse than losing someone whom you love but doesnt love you back. I guess I should count my blessings.